Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Sweet Tripp Roth!


Friends,

I beg you to get on your knees and pray for sweet Tripp!

He was diagnosed with a rare genetic skin disease called "EB." Any type of friction on his skin or mucous membranes causes blisters.



I can not look at this face without my heart breaking!

How I long to take his pain away! How I long to hold his Momma in my arms and tell her how proud I am of her!



His mother is amazing! She has so much FAITH! She is trusting God with her son, and allowing His will to be done!

I so long to tell her how much I admire her... how proud I am of him! She is amazing!



I remember looking at Oscar's little bottom and my heart breaking for the sores on it... Well... look at sweet Tripp's poor lil bottom :'(



Tripp is coming close to the end of this world, and nearer to a world of perfection with our savious, Jesus Christ!

PLEASE keep this precious boy in your prayers! And his family and friends!


We love you Tripp!!




I'll Need a Pinky Swear- by Courtney Roth


As he lies in my lap
And together we sway
I rock him to sleep
And meanwhile I pray:


"Dear God, I know you can see us
And you're watching from above
Filled with sadness for him, as we are,
And equally in love.


I've never once asked You "why?"
Nor questioned if You were near.
But I do have one request tonight,
I pray that you will hear.


When it's time for You to call him home,
And my hope turns into despair,
I will need more than a promise from You,
I'll need a pinky-swear...


That you will hold him close to Your chest,
And say "I love you" all day long.
That you will rock him 'til your knees get sore,
And sing his favorite songs.


Tell me that You'll keep him safe,
So I will not be distressed.
Tell me that he'll will get his wings
And tell me he'll be blessed.


Let me know he made it safely,
Without a single blister or bleed,
Let me know that you will do MY job,
To fulfill his every need.


I have to know that you will love him,
Just as much, or more, than I do.
And when he finally speaks a word,
That You'll record it so I can hear, too.


My buddy is going to need Your help,
With so much yet to learn.
Like using a spoon, writing his name,
And having to wait his turn.


God, please be patient when he tries,
For he's such a sweet and loving boy.
Please give him every thing he wants,
But make sure he shares his toys.


These are things I'll miss out on,
Like no Mommy should have to do.
So don't let one milestone go unnoticed,
Please, I'm begging You.


He likes Elmo's ducks, The Three little Pigs,
Shoo Fly and Counting to Four.
Big Green Tractor, Rise and Shine.
And when they stop, he'll tell you "more."


He holds certain toys in certain hands,
And says yes with a big smile.
Please spend some extra special time,
And talk with him awhile.


It breaks my heart to have to think
That he won't graduate from school.
Or go to prom, or have kids of his own,
Or even break a single rule.


Tell him for me- please don't forget,
That I wanted him to stay.
That I tried and tried to ease his pain,
But it was only YOU who knew the way.


I know you have a choir of angels,
Who play music while they fly.
And if they need a drummer boy-
Well, my Tripp, he's their guy!


You've probably seen it for yourself,
That he's one brave kid, indeed.
But he'll be scared if You have to leave,
So stay with him, I plead.


If he has to go to Heaven first,
I'll make one promise back to You-
I'll miss him every second he's gone,
And spend the rest of my life trying to get there, too.


I hope that's not too much to ask,
And I trust You'll do your best.
To fill my spot, just temporary,
And answer my requests.


Thank in advance, Dear God.
Because I know You're a busy man.
I trust in You and in Your Will
And know You have a plan."


Words just simply can't express
To my only son who just turned two-
How very much my heart will ache
If that rocking chair is without you.


So dear sweet angel baby of mine,
If we ever have to say goodbye...
I'll rock you in my heart forever,
Until we meet again in the sky.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

gone.

I lay here wide awake at night,
thinking of nothing but you.
With tears streaming down my face,
and my heart so full of pain.

You packed up your things and left me here,
without even saying goodbye.
And all I have left is the memories,
I know we will never relive again.

I know I was never good enough,
but I never deserved this.
I didn't deserve the way you ran away,
without telling me a thing.

You took my little girl so far away,
and you used her to play your games.
I miss you both oh-so-much,
but I can't keep playing.

You want to talk and then you don't,
how the hell am I meant to know?
I call you back and she answers your phone,
Is she the one giving you what you want?

Well have it all, baby,
and rub it in my face.
You got the perfect life without me now,
but do you even care about how you left me feeling?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Life in the fast lane

When was the moment it seemed to fast forward?
Is it just me, or does everything seem to be going so much quicker then ever these days.

Well, lets just say, I am glad in some ways and in others I wish time would just slow down! Everything is so busy and cluttered and I feel as if there is never any time to do anything!

Working 5 shifts at MacDonalds a week, plus fitting in as much babysitting as I can, going out to parties and finding time to bond with my girl friends, spending time with Oscar and running around after the kids, fundraising for adoptings, and praying to God that time slows down to fit more in.

Gosh, when did that transition happen?!

Anyway, Oscar is growing up on us so fast... although I havn't seen him in a while! It is hard to find the time with all this other stuff going on, and I miss him oh-so-much!

It is hard to beleive he is 3 now!
Wasn't it just a few days ago we sat in that hospital room? I could swear it was....



This precious blue eyed boy and I have a prayer request, too!

Some of you may know Sam, the orphan who is being adopted. Well, his family is meeting him NOW! And they happen to be in the same institution!

They were not able to get us pictures of Max but they did say he is wayyyyyy cuter in real life then in his picture! They also told us he can walk!

It is so releiving knowing a little about the place Max is waiting in. It is also comforting to know that yes, he is ok!

However, there is still a rush to get him home, and this darn paperwork thing is so annoying! Nothing ever seems to be compleate, or there is an error, and it is always traveling between people to get fixxed up!

Praise God we have such a great bunch of 'helpers' willing to use their time to bring Max home!


Teenage drama never stops amazing me... not that I can really just put it out there as I want to do.
Lets just say, Moms, be ready! LOL :)

Billy, Zac and Annie are all doing good. Annie has the 'frincess' obsession where she changes her clothes ten times a day and wants me to do her make up. Its kinda sweet, but is starting to get her in some big trouble! Bedroom time outs are common for Miss Grumpy at the moment!
Which reminds me... how on earth do we get her to stop. NOTHING seems to be working. Smacks, time outs, no treats... FAIL!
I suggested we just keep putting her in the room, and eventually she will stop (I hate smacking her!!!!) But it doesnt seem to be working!

The kids love the fact that I can now drive. Billy will constently be asking me if we can go for a drive, or will I take him to soccar practice. I don't particually like driving with the kids in the car, but Billy is pretty cool with it. Zac and Annie do not know how it sit quietly while Mum talks me through what to do, which makes me nervous! They also don't really think it is safe for them, as they have seen me bunny hop down the street ;)
I love driving!!!


I went on camp last week, but I will save that for a new post... soon, I promise :)

Anyways, gotta go get dressed, curl my hair, put my makeup on, get changed and go out dancing!

Happy day :)