Hmmmmm, whoever could it be?
So proud of you, Ozzy!!!
Friday, April 29, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
What am I meant to feel?
Guilt... That I was never there to kiss her or hug her?
Joy... For she is now happy and healthy and doing everything and anything she ever dreamed of?
Saddness... That I won't see her in this world?
Sorrow... Because I watch people I now call family go through an unimaginably difficult time?
Power... For I KNOW my prayers are being heard?
Confusion... Because there are so many mixed feelings?
Selfishness... Because I am crying that I don't get to be with her, even though I KNOW she is happy?
Anger... That I can't be with 'my family' as they walk this difficult road?
Tell me which of these feeling am I meant to feel?
Because today I got told I should have none of them... I didn't 'know' her they told me...
I have all those feelings and soooo many more!
But Chrissie, you know my feelings, you hear my prayers and you see my heart... so know this baby girl, I KNOW you, and I LOVE you... You have given me more then I could ever ask for, more then I deserve. and I am totally greatful!
A year ago today you were on your second day of being stuck in that hospital! You had died for 20 minutes yesterday and today you were proving to doctors what a warrior you are! And then, Mommy got a picture of your heart, showing us you had a cross right in the middle :) Its totally cool, baby!
Anyways, you are really starting to get me praying! Its amazing!
And today, 2011, I am praying and thanking and praising and loving and crying and its all ok! Cause you did it baby girl! You and God worked in magical ways to change my life and so many others!
Thank you Chrissie, I love you!
Joy... For she is now happy and healthy and doing everything and anything she ever dreamed of?
Saddness... That I won't see her in this world?
Sorrow... Because I watch people I now call family go through an unimaginably difficult time?
Power... For I KNOW my prayers are being heard?
Confusion... Because there are so many mixed feelings?
Selfishness... Because I am crying that I don't get to be with her, even though I KNOW she is happy?
Anger... That I can't be with 'my family' as they walk this difficult road?
Tell me which of these feeling am I meant to feel?
Because today I got told I should have none of them... I didn't 'know' her they told me...
I have all those feelings and soooo many more!
But Chrissie, you know my feelings, you hear my prayers and you see my heart... so know this baby girl, I KNOW you, and I LOVE you... You have given me more then I could ever ask for, more then I deserve. and I am totally greatful!
A year ago today you were on your second day of being stuck in that hospital! You had died for 20 minutes yesterday and today you were proving to doctors what a warrior you are! And then, Mommy got a picture of your heart, showing us you had a cross right in the middle :) Its totally cool, baby!
Anyways, you are really starting to get me praying! Its amazing!
And today, 2011, I am praying and thanking and praising and loving and crying and its all ok! Cause you did it baby girl! You and God worked in magical ways to change my life and so many others!
Thank you Chrissie, I love you!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Kisses goodbye
A year ago was the last time she got dressed up in her little princess dress....
The last time she got to ride on her super cool new scooter....
The last time she got to rip the paper off a gift that made her giggle....
The last time she got a super giant peice of yummy cake and eat it all up!
The last time she danced in Daddy's arms....
The last time she got a TON of new jelewery that she LOVED, can't cha tell?!...
The last time she got to hear the happy birthday song and blow out the candles in her cake at her "Birthday party"
One year ago today we celebrated with Chrissie, the last day of her heart being broken.
Tonight one year ago was the last time Momma and TaTa kissed Miss Chrissie into her little bed, knowing that tomorrow was going to be a hard, hard day.
But, one year ago today we kissed her good night unknowing what was about to happen in the next month.
Unknowing of what God was going to do with Chrissie's story.
Tomorrow, we CELEBRATE what God has done in the past year... the amount of people He used Chrissie to bring to Him!
I will be reading the 'Boss your heart' book and 'reliving' Chrissie's journey as a reminder how God used her to change my life in SO many ways.
Join me?
Chrissie, I am so sorry I was never there to kiss you or hug you, but me heart was always there and I am glad you know that! You did AMAZING things, and I am so very proud of you baby girl!
Love you and miss you lots xox
Friday, April 8, 2011
Pacing for Palsy
Today, break two at Lake Munmorah High School ten teachers and ten students lined up to raise funds and awarness for Cerebral Palsy. One of those students included myself.
We ran back and forth in the beep test to show our respect and love for people living their life and just so happen to have Cerebral Palsy.
When I started my journey with Oscar I NEVER imagined where I have come.
I have meet the most wonderful people who have changed my life.
I have watched myself change, and become closer to Christ through the journey He has taken me on!
I am FOREVER blessed thanks to my sweet boy!
Today we honored all those living with CP. We hoped to make a differance, and I just know we have!
Alot of you who read my blog have come here because of my Oscar. I know that some of you have family, friends, children with CP... today I honored them... I ran because of them.
So, I am not the best runner... ok, I totally suck, but it was all worth it.
Today wasn't so much about the funds to me. I know each and every cent of that money will make a differance in someones life... but for me today was about awarness.
It would all be worth it if one person says "A life with CP is a life worth living" or "They are still people, having something a little differant does not change who they are"... THAT is what matters the most!
Today, I saw a sweet friends heart fill with pride after what she had done. What she acheived.
Kim worked SO hard to put it all together, raise the funds and then get to level 10 on the beep test!
Girly, I am SO proud of you! You have an amazing heart, don't ever change!
So, my legs are killing but my heart is full with pride and joy! I feel so blessed to be able to share my love with you all, and thankful that you share your love with me!
Oh, and if you are wondering... I got to level 6.4 (Which is sooooo much better then my last beep test ;)) and of course, students won! :)
We ran back and forth in the beep test to show our respect and love for people living their life and just so happen to have Cerebral Palsy.
When I started my journey with Oscar I NEVER imagined where I have come.
I have meet the most wonderful people who have changed my life.
I have watched myself change, and become closer to Christ through the journey He has taken me on!
I am FOREVER blessed thanks to my sweet boy!
Today we honored all those living with CP. We hoped to make a differance, and I just know we have!
Alot of you who read my blog have come here because of my Oscar. I know that some of you have family, friends, children with CP... today I honored them... I ran because of them.
So, I am not the best runner... ok, I totally suck, but it was all worth it.
Today wasn't so much about the funds to me. I know each and every cent of that money will make a differance in someones life... but for me today was about awarness.
It would all be worth it if one person says "A life with CP is a life worth living" or "They are still people, having something a little differant does not change who they are"... THAT is what matters the most!
Today, I saw a sweet friends heart fill with pride after what she had done. What she acheived.
Kim worked SO hard to put it all together, raise the funds and then get to level 10 on the beep test!
Girly, I am SO proud of you! You have an amazing heart, don't ever change!
So, my legs are killing but my heart is full with pride and joy! I feel so blessed to be able to share my love with you all, and thankful that you share your love with me!
Oh, and if you are wondering... I got to level 6.4 (Which is sooooo much better then my last beep test ;)) and of course, students won! :)
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