Thank you, Oscar

Dear Oscar,

I found this peom today, and it really got me thinking.
I remebered when I found out you had Down syndrome.
I am not going to lie, I was TERRIFIED!
Because the doctors made it seem so scary, they are just silly!
They don't know what a blessing you are, Down syndrome and all! And thats just a bummer for them ;)

When I read this I thought that if we found out you had Down syndrome when you were still in your mummy's tummy this little boy could have been you!
But God made sure we didn't find out untill you were one day old :)
See, God has always loved you!

I think about what my life would be like without you.... and I do not like it one bit!

Because of you, when I read this my heart aches...

Month One

Mommy
I am only 4 inches long
but I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
The sound of your heart beat
is my favorite lullaby.



Month Two

Mommy
today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
you could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.





Month Three

You know what Mommy
I'm a boy!!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don't like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too
and I cry with you even though
you can't hear me.




Month Four

Mommy
my hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
but I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
and stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.




Month Five

You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I'm not a baby.
I am a baby Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what's abortion?




Month Six


I can hear that doctor again.
I don't like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can't get away from it!
Mommy! HELP me!



Month Seven


Mommy
I am okay.
I am in Jesus's arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn't you want me Mommy?



Every Abortion Is Just . . .



One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

You are such a precious gift Oscar, and I wish everyone knew what a blessing Down syndrome really is!

One day.... :)


Thank you, precious lovie, for changing me!

I love you,
Godmummy xo