Soon, baby!

Oscar,

I had this post finished and ready to post when I got home from work... but now that I am home I have to re-edit it all to tell you a few more things.

I have good news to share with our friends but also bad :(

I titled this post 'soon, baby' in my draft and thought I would have to change that with the heart breaking news I just reseved, but looking at it, its kind of fitting.

So, I guess Ill get the bad news over with, so we can finish with good...


Oscar. It breaks my heart to tell you this, but beautiful Nikita and Merlena have gone to heaven :(
There Mummy and Daddy were on their way but it was too late, they never got to know the love we give you!

Its just SICK, Oscar! I wont let you grow up not knowing about these kids and how lucky you are... YOU are gonna make a differance, baby :)


So, yesterday I was texting Mummy and I asked how your wittle bottom was... and do you know what?! YOUR CREAM IS WORKING!
Well, no blood at least! :)

I am so exited to see you tomorrow, and show you your new toy from our friend, Debbie :)

I am talking to her now, and boy, I love her!
She ALWAYS makes me smile!

Well baby, Vampire Diarys is on (YUMMMMM!!!) so gotta go!

I love you!

...Sent with love...

Sorry, but our T21 message isn't ready and I have another post I just HAVE to share!


So, the past few days I have been expecting a package the past few days and I knew it would be here today!
So I rushed home from school and checked the letter box!



Nothing... :(


I looked on the front steps...


Nothing... :(


So I got ready to go for my walk with Kaitlin and hoped it would come tomorrow!
I was getting dressed when I looked into my mirror and there it was... a box, sent with LOVE!

I danced around my room in exitment to open it! I opened my door and realised I didnt have a top or bra on... AHHH! So back in I went, put a top on and ran out in the kitchen to open it!

OH MY GOODNESS Debbie Marks!
You tell me your not crazy...?!
But I have to say... This box bought so much joy!
It felt like for a second, I was there! With you... amazing.



When I lifted the lid of that box it felt like nothing elce mattered.
When I opened that package I felt loved and adored.
I felt like I belonged.











Ok, so these things are AMAZING!!!.....




So, I think my fav thing in this box, next to the pictures of Max and the sweet cards from the kids, is the scarf... it is just BEAUTIFUL! Thank you!






Thank you so much Debbie, Paul, Adelay, Scarlet, Hayden and Harley!
I love you all so very much!
What a box of JOY!
But next time...a card and save the money for Max, please? ;)
hahahaha!

Love you!

Two broken hearts

I need some prayers guys.

Two of my best friends have broken hearts. Well, maybe not hearts, the doctors have no idea!

My beautiful Emma,


And my amazing Shani, (who many of you already know of!)



I'll start with Emma.
Not long after Christmas Emma started passing out for no reason. Thank goodness I have never seen her do it, but her 6 year old sister has! Poor little hunny!
Emma has had alomst every test under the sun to figure out what is going on, but they arn't sure what is going on yet. They do know its her heart, just not sure why!
She is going for a heart ultra sound soon, so could you please keep her in your prayers?




Emma has been my friend for YEARS! My life without her would be insain! Although I tend to think she is the reason I am so crazy ;)
These photo's were taken SO long ago... almost a year ago because it was on my birthday! Wow! Em, I miss our sleep overs girly!


Shani baby!
Well, we first found out she was 'sick' a few months ago when she passed out in PE! And had a fit pretty much ontop of me! It was crazy and scary! I remember sitting in the hall with a few on my friends, holding Shani's hand and whipering in her ear for her to 'boss her heart' with tears all around the room.
Each time Shani passes out is terrifing! She wakes up and gasps for air wondering where she is and who we are. Its horrible, and I can not imagain how she feels when its happening.
Shani has had EVERYTHING tested. They are calling her their mystory patient (Which BTW is one of Oscar's fav episopes of Mickey Mouse :))
PLEASE pray for them to find out what is going on!
More doctors appointments for Shani very soon!



Both of my girls are AMAZING! They have great hearts and personalities!
Of all my friends these two were the most supportive when Chrissie was in hospital and went to be with Jesus. Even though I didn't know Chrissie, I loved her with all my heart, and they understood that and held my hand through it all.
Emma claimed to be a 'heavenist' which cracked me up! She belived in heaven, but not God. I tried to change her mind, but no way!
And as for Shani, well, I almost lost hope there.

With both girls being sick with broken hearts I have been telling them to 'boss their hearts!'...and they have been!

A few day's ago Shani fainted in my arms. She was in and out for about half an hour. I left her in the ambulance with my boss your heart necklace and trusted fully that she was in God's hands, and Chrissie was right there with her.

The next day Shani bought a thank you card to school.
Its way too long for me to tell you what it said but here is just one part of it...
"Thank you for showing me that God does exist. Knowing that has really helped me"
YEP! Shani said that!
Shani BELIEVES!

Then today.... I told Emma I was praying for her, she told me she has been praying too! SHE BELIEVES!

The heavenist and the girl who has no hope in beleiveing now beleive!

How is THAT for magic?

There is only one thing I can say....
CAN I GET AN AMEN?!

I can not beleive how God has used ME to show these beautiful girls He IS there, and He loves them more then you or I think is possible!
I feel so unworthy to have these girls as friends, and I hope I can be some sort of help to them while they walk this journey.

I can see their fear. Both terrified of what the doctors will say.

Emma and Shani, I want you to know that I love you with all of my heart and more, but more then that, I want you to know that God loves you! I want you to know that Chrissie is write there with you, bossing your hearts!
I am honored that God sent Chrissie into my life and changed me forever, but I also love the fact that He used me and Chrissie to touch YOUR lives! AMAZING, simply beautiful!
I know you are scared, and I promise to be there for you, whenever, where ever you need me!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE you girls ;)
Always and forever.
Tay xoxoxoxo

Lucky.

Today I was hoping to see Oscar. Unfortunatly, they have to go out and won't be home in time for me to work this afternoon :(

So I today, I think about EVERYTHING in my life. Do you know what I realise?
I am SO darn lucky!
Unbelieveably blessed!
With SO SO much!

Before Oscar I thought my life was perfect, compleate with a phone, I-pod and computer.
Then God gave me him.
When he was first born, my life was offically PERFECT! Everything was amazing and beautiful.



Then, he was diognosed with Down Syndrome. My heart broke! Why would they give us a perfect little boy and take him away from us?
I didn't know that those two words made me realise how lucky I am.

Oh, I hate to think where I would be if those Doctors never said the words "Down syndrome" with tears in their eyes.




The journey we have traveled in the past 3 years has been amazing one.
It has never been easy, but defenatly amazing.

That was the moment it all began. It was the moment I got so lucky.

God had it all planed out. And its amazing watching His story unfold in our lives.



I have the most amazing friends, here and over seas.

My best friend, Ashley, lives on the compleate other side of the world! We have never meet in person, but I love her with ALL my heart!
The only reason we meet is beacause Oscar has Down syndrome. And because Ash's sister, Laura, does too :)

On the 16th of May, 2008, at 5-02 am, I got lucky! Oh So Lucky!

And I wouldn't change a second of our journey together...



Looking forward to the blessed future with my beautiful boy :)

I promise I will see him soon! And get some pictures!

fabulous!

Friday afternoon I took Zac, Annie and Gus down to the park for some fun!
Zac and Annie both super tired... Gus just woken up... 3 little grumps!
Oh, just incase your wondering, Gus is the little boy I babysit 5 days a week :)

So we headed off, with 3 little grumps, for some hopfully fun time together!
As soon as we got to the park I saw their sweet little face's light up!

Well. If you look at the pictures you will see how wonderfully they played together AND treated eachother!

Thank you, God, for these sweet lil' blessing :)